Strength is what I pray for.  I have a huge void to get acquainted with and it's not easy.  It's very quiet here.  There has been so much going on the last four months and now to have everything silenced is something I will have to get used to.  It's going to be better when it's nicer outside.  It was nice tonight after work - but I got my hair cut and then had to mow and then it was too late to pound the pavement.  I so long to get out there - put my sun glasses on so I can pretend nobody sees me - breathe in the fresh air - and just run!!  Just run to escape reality for just awhile.  Just to let my mind concentrate on nothing for just awhile.  To throw myself into a task with effort but yet mindless for just awhile.  I know the nicer weather is on the way - I know better days are on the way....  I really like this song - you can read the words below or view the video on YouTube under song title and author.  It's a very meaningful song.  

STRONGER by Mandisa

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

[Chorus]
When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you Stronger
Try and do the best you can

Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

[Chorus]

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger